Nice person

 I always thought I was a nice person. But it turns out I was just doing nice things once in awhile. Deep down I was just doing nice things so people would think I was a nice person. And it turns out, most people would rather have a nice person than nice things. Almost 70 years to figure this out. I have no idea how to become a nice person or if people are just born that way. But maybe the first step is to recognize that you aren't a nice person, but that you want to be. One step at a time.

Prayer

 I'll admit, I mostly pray when things aren't going very good. But I don't think you should have to believe in anything to pray. In the Bible and other theological books, there's a lot of words and most of what people think about theology is other people's interpretation.

I figure that you just pray and it goes out into the ether. And whatever comes back, that's what you get. I've never gotten any booming voice, but sometimes my mind settles down and I get a better understanding of what's going on. I don't know where it's coming from and I don't think it matters. I just think the Universe exists and everything interacts to promote existence. So when you get that Aha! moment it will probably promote good existence.